the dance at the swiss club the past 2 days went pretty well.... the atmosphere was quite happening on sat night, although the same could not be said about yesterday.... well, it was probably going to be the last performance that i'm ever going to do with the club, so of course there were some feelings in it.... even though i may have hated the dance at times in the past, i actually find it quite fun now... its a time when most of the members will gather together, and where we will crap and joke around... gonna miss that.... oh well....


well, i confessed to her on sat.... not sure what came over me but i juz felt that i had to do it.... it seems that the feeling was mutual, but the prob was with the parents at the other side.... well, i can't blame her, who would want to hurt their parents by doing something that they strongly object to.... its all a case of religion and race... if they can't accept me, someone who is of a different race and religion, then so be it.... i'm not going to be an asshole by ruining their relationship... she has made her decision, and i accept it.... well, i juz think that its a waste.... this is probably the first time that i like someone whom likes me back.... but i'm letting it go... i have to.... i'm not even sure what i'm supposed to feel.... zin told me that if you like someone, you should not care whether they are of a different race or religion, and that you should not care bout what your parents think.... but its easier said than done.... we practically grew up with our parents, and as much as we would like to think that we would be free and independent from them and their influences after a certain age, the fact remains that they are Your parents and they will always be an important part of your life... imagine growing up and living with your parents for years and then suddenly you are estranged from them due to some differences.... it will hurt you inside, and probably scar you for life.... maybe i am exaggerating, but part of it is true.... and i'm not saying that what zin said is wrong, perhaps diffent people have different opinions.... for one, i know that she is a very independent girl who could easily look after herself.... as for me, i'm thankful that i have wonderful parents who are pretty open regarding some of these race issues... i think... haha... perhaps it has got to do with the fact that they both are of different races... i'm juz speculating here... and zin, please don be offended by what i said.... its juz my opinion.... you still rock girl!! haha.... oh well, i've got to move on... again....


Riz lost himself at 5/02/2005 03:52:00 pm

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